Memorified Moments

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Was studying chem chez Sharm today. It turned out quite fun, seeing that I was cuddling a cold, hard plastic dinosaur. Yeps, I'm mad. Halfway through, i changed the slide pointer to a pen, so i could write down on the slides whilst explaining to Sharmini cherie. That's when the fun started. I turned xiao, and we were making perverted thingies out of Chemistry. And we didn't even get to KPT (wasn't on the agenda, only finished bonding and another one...can't remember it)

Eg:

Lichen: Period is horizontal. Group is vertical. Get it into your head. *knocks sharmini with dinosaur*

Sharm: Okay...the pad is horizontal, so period is horizontal. Got it.

Lichen: BUT THE TAMPON IS VERTICAL!!! What if I get confused?

And on and on and on. So fun, i tell you. Actually got to learn AND have a good time.

Whoopee-doo.

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Sunday, April 24, 2005

After officially abdicating my post of Hades, Lord of the Crits to Lola, I've decided to reclaim that part of me. Why? Cause I'm stressed and I need a form of venting that, and what better way than to tear apart our snivelling government's pathetic excuses?

And here's my article - I may do another after my piano, not sure - DPM lee on free speech: Have a View

"Speak up, speak intelligently and be prepared for your views to be examined."

In short, prepare for trouble if we don't like what you're saying. Babe, you gotta get a life! You've been repeating the same lame excuses for the past what, 4 years? And if you're still wondering why people don't believe them, take a good look at what you say. There's no way of threatening people and STILL having them happy-wacky.

"The government encourages them to have a view. Many people don't have a view. For example if you ask them about the recession, you might not hear a good answer because they haven't thought about it properly."

Ad hominem. Attack on person. What this dear babe means here is that: Some people may speak, but they talk crap. Actually, personally speaking, I feel that my judgement here is rather farfetched, but not without reasons. Lee has no reason to go around insulting people (what a fine way to win support yeah?) unless he's trying to undermine a certain group of people. Three guesses who? And I wonder why people are unsatisfied.

"There has to be a certain maturity. Your arguements have to be open to a certain scrutiny and judgement"
"If you raise an economical or politcal issue, you must be prepared to have a robust debate."
"...very few topics that Singaporeans could not discuss, the exception being anything defamatory."

This is getting boring. I wonder how Lee can stand writing this speech, seeing that it's just repeating the same points OVER AND OVER AGAIN!! In short: You must be prepared to die if you say anything defamatory about us, or else you're an immature brat. Hun, you give good, I gotta admit, but this issue is strong. There's no way around it. People will know if you're trying to shut them up.

"As for the speakers' Corner and its gradual decline into obscurity, Mr. Lee said he did not see the need for it with all the media forums that are available for opinion exchange. "Why do they want to go and stand in the sun?" he said."

That's the biggest load of crap I've heard in a century. In fact, this excuse is so...well, lame (how many times have I used this word already? Okay, pathetic.) For one thing, not many people know much about these internet sites, which is probably why the government let them say what they want, with a bare few threats here and there, apart from the fact that they can now say, "Look at the internet forums! We're allowing free speech!" Lookie here hun, if people are willing to debate for so damned long (take a look at the dates of the articles) for this Hong Lim Park, what are the chances that they'll abandon it after so much of hard work? And as for the sun, well, if people can go on strikes and demonstrations to get their point across, I doubt the people will shut up and settle for a measley little forum that gawd knows how many people go to anyway. I'm not sure whether you've experienced it or not, but when people are passionate, they tend to go to all lengths. You sure it's the hot sun and not the lack of something involving bankrupting, jailing and many, many years that's deterring people from the place?

There's not much about this article, really. Fact being, DPM lee is just trying to save face from the article by the Agence France Presse which was short, succinct and to the point, AND points out all the loopholes that are in our lee-proclaimed Freedom of Expression. Lee's article is dated a mere 15 days after THAT article. Put it together, guys. This is just bickering. One says, "Oh, you say singaporeans may speak freely. I've got facts here. You're lying." The other is, "Oh, you're immature if you don't allow us to cross-examine your words if we don't like it."

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I've been called 'extremely cynical' by two different people in three days.

Not really sure whether I should be flattered or insulted. For one thing, I've always been thinking of myself as a skeptic. I know the price of everything, but trust me, I know the value very damned well.

After all, my backup plan if i fail to become a lawyer is to be a psychiatrist. Which involves knowing the value of, say, a sentimental necklace.

Besides, and it really pains me to admit, I'm really a fluff kind of person. (After all, you are the reason I live, you're my light in the dark, my fallen angel, my shining star. *Evil grinz*)

But then again, I really don't care for the value of things. Haha, I'm an idiot. That I know. And you're the shit on the road, the poo that smells, the grim reaper in the night, the messanger from hell.

I'm really stuck on these two phrases.

ANYWAY, I'm blogging. Sucks to Christabel. Y'know what she said? "Oh, I, unlike someone, blog everyday...Oh, 'cept the days that I don't."

Smart, chrissie-poo. I also blog everyday, cept the days that i don't. *grinz*

I realised that i actually know why Lee Hsien Long and his father are promoting chinese. Let's take a look at that guy's english: "Let me tell you about a controversial issue. It's quite a controversial one."

If we don't start being fluent in chinese, no one will understand him at the next rally or anything.

And since we're doing Freedom of Expression at the moment (S'pore govt. very stupid LEH. SO not observing FOE and still doing it for Social Studies. Oh, I mean, not observing foe HOR, still doing SS LOR. Haha, chatting to Lola has that kinda effects on people. She's so interested in Singlish she's mutilitating her proper engish for these lousy kinda thingies. Idiot.) lemme raise some points. After all, Singapore needs, 'as a government, to encourage participation and debate' (excerpts from PRIME MINISTER LEE HSIEN LOONG'S NATIONAL DAY RALLY 2004 SPEECH, SUNDAY 22 AUGUST 2004, AT THE UNIVERSITY CULTURAL CENTER, NUS. the above lousy english thingie also came from there.)

Lets start with the letter: Free speech venues may threaten order

The Sing govt says they agree that 'part of maturing as a society involves recognising the value of ideas, even when one disagrees vehemently with their source.'

Someone point out to our -oh-so-accepting-of-ideas government they conveniently forgot to mention that they would accept th value of ideas, even when they disagree with the idea (eg: Lee Hsien Loong is an idiot and cares more for himself than Singapore's welfare? Just an example, don't sue me. Can't blame my thoughts for taking that direction. JUST AN EXAMPLE. Take that, Lees!) itself.

'However, Singapore is a multi-racial and multi-religious society. Race, language and religion remain potential devisive fault lines which can lead to social unrest and low and order problems if not managed carefully.'

Ha, how to put it to you, hun (mind if i call you call you hun? Or do you prefer cat? Nevermind, hun), WE'VE ACCEPTED THAT WE'RE A MULTI RELIGIOUS COUNTRY. No one really cares or make big trouble about the forementioned three anymore. Wait a minute, is that all the arrested people jailed and fined for talking about these? NO! Good excuse, i have to admit, but not good enough. Anyone with enough brains can tell that it's a load of shit to shut people up.

'Speeches which are political in nature, or touch on race, language and religion, can elicit disaffection or highly emotional responses.'

Hohoho, let slip see. Disaffection: so does NOT mean discontent. No, the Home affairs Ministry is not referring to friction between races. Disaffection. Disaffection for who? Can't be our dear monarchy government can it? *Gasps! Shock! Scandal!* Lookie here, hun, do you mean that you're not going to let people have their say just because YOUR POSITION IN THE GOVERNMENT MAY BE THREATENED???

'Applicants, including opposition parties, have been routinely granted PELs for events at these venues.'

Oh dear, I really don't know what to say about this. Is your english so crappish that you're spewing your darkest and deepest secrets unintentionally, or is your english so crappish that you're spewing your darkest and deepest secrets unintentionally? 'Routinely granted'. Ha. Read that. 'Routinely granted'. Oh no, does it mean that these people are not granted the right to speak up because they're supposed to have these rights, but because it's a routine to win public support and explain to the public when the time comes?!? My dear government, you're REALLY slipping.

'They consider factors such as the proposed programme, nature of the speeches, suitability of the site and timing of the event.'

Where to start, where to start. Oh, this has absolutely too many goodies hidden inside. 'Proposed programme' - nothing to do with the government is allowed through, i suppose? 'Nature of the speeches' - Yep, it could mean race, language and religion. Could it also mean politics? My spectaculation, of course. This has absolutely no basis cept for my bias. I apologize.

Then here's the bomb: 'timing of the event'. Sincerely, I cannot think of a single time the government shouldn't be open to criticisms and ideas. Oh my gawd, they cannot mean ELECTION TIME, can they? As in, you know, the opposition raises valid points against the current government right before the election? Spectaculation again, yet this has much more basis. Tell me, dear, what other events can there be? My birthday?

'The police do not require the proposed speeches to be submitted with the application. There is no "prior censorship"'

Hun, of course there isn't. You've made the other points that need to be submitted thorough enough already. Anyone with a speck of a brain can figure out the rest. Say the form in filled in this way: 'the proposed programme: the government changes for the better', 'nature of the speeches: Political; opposition', timing: 'Chrissie-poo's birthday'. Are they going to agree? Well, THAT i don't know, though I bet everyone can read my mind at this time. Are they going to know the contents of the speeches? Hell, yes.

'A "Hyde Park" setting is not appropriate for discussion of serious issues. These are thoroughly debated in existing forums, such as parliament or the media. Dr Chee Soon Juan has received extensice coverage in the media. His problem is not inadequate publicity, but full exposure.'

That, i have to admit, was a smart move. However, your refusal to accept crits is too strong. It so totally overrules your excuses, both the pathetic and the good. For one, the opposition members in the Parliament make ah, how do i put it, routine trips to the jail whenever they talk bad about the Lee family et al. I was about the say 'We only have one point of view in the media, and that is FOR the government in the television, FOR the government in the newspapers, and BOTH in the newspaper forums, though the newspaper, which is FOR the government in the first place, has the right not to print out anything against the government when the little conveniently put there reminder stopped me in my tracks.

Yes, how do we explain Dr Chee Soon Juan's media attention? Simple. Firstly, Dr Chee Soon Juan made himself public. He screamed in public, raged in public, and basically gave the government a hard time in public. If the government tried to cover this up, there're be so much rumours (which spread pretty damned fast) and people will be like, "Oh my gosh, the government is covering this up. There's something going on." Besides, by the time the word got round to the rest of Singapore, there'll be so many distortions and who knows how the govt would look by then? Why not opt for the easier method of getting the media to report the govt's biased version of stuff and brainwash the citizens while at it? Furthermore, despite majority of the media being for the government, you get bet they'll lose support quickly if the govt refuses to let them public a matter so big as that. In the end, if they did that, the article will still be published, but you can just bet it wouldn't be for the government. Furthermore, and this is a sick (which is actually a slang for 'cool' overseas) trick whereupon journalists in newspapers frequently write rather controversial but never full-blown dangerous articles, for example, "Singapore females need to be more like other countries'". I'm not sure whether the govt actually planned this (but you gotta admit, much as I think Lee Hsien Loong is a bastard [his father made too many contributions for me to have that bad an opinion of him, I'm not THAT much an ingrate] he's gotta be smart to be able to quel the fire raging all these years for so long) Yet ANYWAY, be it intentional or not, we all know what will happen to the journalists if they shoot bullets at the government, especially since you have to put your name there. Smart trick, and effective. I doubt journalists will risk their career and freedom for such things. (Look at the article in our newspaper collection about 'Down with misguided self-censorship'.)

Dirty political tricks, yes, but what else can you expect when you have a country where adjacent Prime Ministers are father and son?

'we cannot put at risk the racial harmony and sense of public order, peace and safety built up painstakingly over the years. For this reason, we cannot support the setting up of "free-speech" venues.'

Darling, I'm not going to persuade you am I? For goodness sake, you probably can't tell the difference from the crap that comes from your mouth and the shit that comes from your ass. We Singaporeans, despite having cultivated Singlish, are a reasonable and cultured bunch. We won't set fire to buildings anymore. The current society the world is in won't allow us. There is little need to talk about 'peace and safety' cause you don't even allow us to have demonstrations. What crap, there's still loads of these going on overseas, and I bet they didn't have such a low FOE rating.The only thing you have to censor is talk about religion, race and language stuff. Stop caring so much about your face. If there's so much dirt that we HAVE to point it out, then you might as well not have that face and step down coz cuz, you don't deserve it.

Whew! Well, that was my rant for one article. There may be more to come, there may not. For the record, I say it here: If i were in the government, there'll probably be so much corruption I have to take the same measures. (Oh dear, really doesn't speak well of the current govt, does it?) But that's because I'm a selfish bitchy person. The government has no business being selfish and bitchy. If you wanna be selfish and bitchy like me, then don't become the government, LIKE ME.

Haha, I SOOOO rock.

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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

As the chinese proverb from our lessons say: the stone in the feaces pit: big and smelly (can't remember the exact thingie...like duh) that's my life in general.

ANYWAY, due to the lecture I had to endure from a certain someone *glares at Chrissie* I'm updating. Whoopie-dee-doo.

Er...yeah. Thank me.

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Monday, April 18, 2005

Real women have curves, wrinkles, and flaws.

Each one earned with experience, perseverance and determination.

There's no computer to airbrush your mistakes.

Let them make you who you are.

Love every mark, every scar, every extra curve you wished to go away,

Accept what you can't learn to love,

Then let go of what you can't accept.

Treasure them for their memories

Like a worn love letter or ratty old quilt from generations of old.

Each wrinkle comes with the wisdom only years of life can give.

And life is not to be hidden or covered up.

For life is how a girl grows into a woman

And real women have curves.

No, dears. I don't have the talent, for one, and perseverance to write this poem. It's good, no? Anyway, I copied it off poetryamerica.com, and it was written by some american woman who had published a book before, cept I can't remember what. Anyway, here's the url:

http://www.poetryamerica.com/read_poems.asp?id=245610&t=Courage%20Poems&p=courage_poems.asp&pg=1

I do believe she'll win the contest. Don't you agree?

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Lookie here, Mary, Chrissie-poo, I'm updating for you.

Anyway, if you wanna know what I'm so upset about lately, ask me on Monday and I'll be ranting for the whole day. (Freaking selfish, despicable, lowly, pathetic bitch! How dare she intrude upon her daughter's love life??? Poor Gracie...)

Flag Day was surprisingly fun. Me and Sanki almost got caught by Siti, rachel Chang (??? ran away before actually confirming that it's her) and one of my ex-string mates, since I've quit. Hehe, we saw them and ran away (I can always say it's the same reaction syimma had when seeing her cru~sh. She's never going to live it down.) After that, se met fellow South View batchmates, but were all running off for flag day reasons - we needed to get out donation tins, and they needed to get their donations XD. At first, I thought we were going to be super slacker and just stand in a (shaded, air-conditioned) place and be bored.

What can I say? My genius surprises even me sometimes. We ended up walking around the place, finally decided on Lido. (We spent three hours on the streets getting rid of one sheet of stickers, and half in Lido getting rid of the other sheet. O.o) My legs are aching even now.

One note: ang mohs, though they like our tissue packets, don't like to donate. Or it's because Bishan Ang Mohs have far too much money for their liking, and Orchard Ang Mohs are stingy.

In Lido (but Lido Ang Mohs are nice), after we persuaded money from this old guy, this girl came up to us and donated. Then she was like 'oh, you're from RGS izzit? I'm from RGPS.' I mentally raised an eyebrow and said 'oh, hope to see you in RG soon, then' and Sanki was 'Oh, then we're your seniors to be' before making a quick exit.

And I thought Kavya was friendly.

Anyway, Sanki asked for a donation from this Malay Ah Beng, and then he was like 'oh, I'll donate if I take a photo of you'. Sanki didn't live that down - and not going to anytime soon. Ah Bengs are surprisingly nice. In the end, we even got a T for Flag Day - both of us asked for M, then I found out that it went down to my knees when we got home. It's super comfy, though, and I betcha I've gotten a new nightie. Yay!

Anyway, I realized that I'm uber good at spewing propaganda. At first, after I persuaded a ten bucks off a woman, I felt rather guilty. Here's the exchange, in case you're interested.

Me: Excuse me, would you like to give a donation? (woman looks hesitant) All proceeds would go to the Downs' Syndrome Association.

Woman: (opens her bag and takes out wallet) Oh, I only have this small change. (Holds up a 5-cent coin)

Me: Oh, any amount will do. It's the thought that counts. You see, due to the tsunami, people are so shocked by this massive and sudden disaster that they've neglected the more common matters that need aid, such as the children. Any amount, however small, will help in their daily needs.

Well, after that, even I, stingy brat, would have donated something, though for me is 10 cents lah. She gave ten bucks. Sanki was like, jaw touch the ground and another (convent, I think) girl was glaring at me like I've told the world her bra was stuffed with tissues. (One was peeping out, you see.)

So, some tips for money collectors - for those hesitating, immediately state: All proceeds would go to the _____ Association. Say it fast, before they can walk away.

If you meet an Ah Mah of your race, use that language. It works better if you're indian and you see an Indian grandma. that community is damned closeknit.

If your target wears a cross on her neck, bring in God somehow. '...These children of god are suffering/we're all children of god..." (It goes for all religons) If you're feeling particularly cheesy, you can always say 'god bless' after it all.

Oh, if you need a drink, get from Lido KF and keep the cup in a plastic bag if you're broke/stingy.

Don't stay on the first floow and below. Go up. More people are there and less money collectors.

Oh, and what was it that changed my mind about my ruthless tactics when collecting money? Do you know what the official people do? They lug one of the Downs' Syndrome people around.

Appeal to pity. Fallacy. Using people for money (who knows if it actually goes to these victims, anyway?)

I went around with a rather clear conscience from then on.

Oh, and approach those at rest/sitting down. They're more likely to donate.

So sad Skate Park closed down for renovations. If not, we could go there and ask for donations. (Not numbers. That's Sharmini's department.)

It was fun lah. We got glared at many, many times, but it was fun.

Who says I'm hard-hearted?

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Saturday, April 09, 2005

Only a few days after I've decided to make this private, I've decided to recall that decision. See, msn likes to hang on me so the only way I can communicate is through this.

My life sucks.

Anyway, now that I'm finished and DONE with the social studies project, first I'll like to apologise. You see, since I'm very stressed and very pissed with the whole wide world, I've been taking it out on the whole wide world also - namely, my poor classmates. ANYWAY, I'm back to normal now, so...yar.

Apologies aside, that doesn't stop the fact that I'm bloody pissed. The library didn't accept Sharm's lame-o excuse about the scanner not scanning the book - they're not stupid, told me about the precautionary measures, and they're not just paranoid. Furthermore, Sharmini STILL hasn't returned YET ANOTHER of my books, and mom's gonna kill me for this. I'm bloody-freaking pissed with her. Lola has yet to call back, Sanki's not in at the moment, and here I am pissed and bored.

My life sucks.

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Tuesday, April 05, 2005

I lost my phone today. Whoopee.

Somehow, I'm not as bothered as I should be. Oh believe me, I was damned flustered and pissed when I first found out, and started cursing the thief the moment I found the phone switched off. (Cause it was on general mode when I left it.)

In case you're wondering, that bloody theif will now be deprived of his/her future happiness, success, ability to procreate, ability to get laid in the first place, the loved one would cheat on him/her, all friends will turn traitors, all enemies will get their wishes, family will either perish or leave him/her...

You get the picture. Anyway, the second matter is the blog.

No one's gonna know about it. I figured it'll just be a lil' cozy pidgeon hole for us Wackos (meaning one Singaporean (the number pending) and a whole group of Austrailians). Besides, and let me make this clear - I'm not calling anyone. YOU call ME.

Yay.

I wanna murder someone.

Hisoka is so cute.

I hate my life.

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Sunday, April 03, 2005

Officially, my little (I have a knack for understatements) bout of depression, lasting four whole months, has ended.

Actually, scrap that. I'm uber pissed right now. I had been happy-happy until the middle of my piano lesson, where Sanki - idiot sms-ed and called me, disturbing me like nobody's business. Then my mom told me, after the lesson, that I have one un-returned book.

Which is, therefore, still in Sharmini/Sanki's hands.

And I still have Sharm's phone, which means I can't call and bug her about the book. (She said she gave it to Sanki, but who is she kidding? I'm looking under her table first thing after I get to school.)

I'll call Lola and bug her.

And bitch. and bitch. and bitch.

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